updated

this is something I wrote a while ago, i updated it with the last 2 paragraphs:

I can't make out the colors, i can only draw the lines.
my head's wrapped around the world, but your windows keep me on the outside.
you've distorted every vision that i ever made in faith
I revolve around a heart that's barely living and a brain still shooting blanks.

I catch myself dreaming of a hope that exceeds everything you have.
Then i blink my eyes and blink my eyes until i lay awake in bed;
content with the struggle that i'm losing, and the maturity I hope to win.

Is there a hope that voids compassion? Is your god not empty without the world?
Did I lodge my tongue in my throat for reasons that I will never know?
I may be just as blind as you are blind
you hold your faith over your eyes, i hold my misery over mine.

So tell me who wanders well?
Which one fakes their stagger and shrugs off their doubts?
Well it won't be me, I'll question my own mind, my own self-righteousness.
i'll place myself far below this hell and climb.
I'll climb far past you,
you son of a bitch that was born to a world
that you wrongfully decided was your stomping ground.
We aren't the playground you can tear down when it's flaws surprisingly expound.
you may replace the thought of me, but I'll be here.
I'll always be here bursting through the seams.

I'll never beg at your feet,
no matter the possibilities it may reward me.
I am my own.
a bird abandoning the flock.
a dream abandoning the night.
I am your biggest threat.
I'll make others blind to you, as you are blind to me.